may our roads intertwine again~♥

A book about: Lessons of A Lakota

- Friday, February 24, 2012 -

It is about a young man's journey to Happiness and Self-Understanding...

He was saddened by his sister's death. And he was really depressed and do not know what is happiness about. I find it interesting because I have searching for something that is missing in me. I do not know what is Happy. From what I know, money don't make me happy, material stuff don't make me happy, having too many friends don't make me happy, etc.

From the book I learnt that what I've mentioned above are called the Lies of Iktumi, on the first card. 1st picture was about the Iktumi about to be eaten up by the Eagle.
Iktumi means spider. Eagle is the truth.

8 Lies of Iktumi:
- If only I were rich, then I'd be happy.
- If only I were famous, then I'd be happy.
- If only I could find the right person to marry, then, I'd be happy.
- If only I were more attractive, then I'd be happy.
- If only I weren't physically handicapped in any way then I'd be happy.
- If only someone close to me hadn't died. then I'd be happy.
- If only the world were a better place, then I'd be happy.

I started to reflect on myself after reading particular part. As most of the parts make sense, just that I am far too blind and my mind far too clouded with all the lies and the make believed believes.

Ultimately, the truth is beautiful but yet simple - you alone are responsible for your happiness. You can't rely on money, relationships, friendships, fame and etc to gain happiness. You might think that you'll be happy but it depends on your perception and desire about being happy.

2nd Card: Drawing Man
I love this "happiness is an emotion just like the other emotions you have. Like all emotions, it's very personal feeling - people can feel different when they're happy."
Emotions and feelings can be controlled because it is something that comes within you.

Make yourself happy there's only one way. Take active steps to convince your mind that you're happy.

3rd Card: Fire
Fire is somehow in relation with happiness because you've to feed the fire to keep it burning. Otherwise, it will go out. In a way, you can't be unhappy all the time because it would not be able to feed the fire that is burning in you to keep your life going on.

Cantesica is something that can destroy you. I do agree with this. Cantesica means despair and sadness. It is just like the Iktumi, that tricks humans, and it does you harm as it leads you to destruction rather than attracting the happiness that makes you work positively. This is something that I have to learn! Since I had learnt the hard way, I have to learn it right right now.

4th Card: A Man Sitting Beneath a Tree
Sequencing in nature is equal to sequencing about human life. from a newborn, toddler, young child, teenager, adult and elder. It is a life cycle that everyone, every living thing have to go through. There are sequencing about happiness too? Initially, I really doubt about this theory as it doesn't make sense. Because, to me, happy means happy, sad means sad, there won't be any sequencing at all. Till I read on....

1st: Think about something that makes you happy.
2nd: Telling yourself that you're happy.
What?! This is it? the so called sequencing about being happy?

Words and thoughts enter our subconscious mind and the mind that often causes us to act in ways that you don't understand. Using a sequence of happiness, a sequence that cannot be changed. The end result will be achieved. Then, the sequence always works, and you'll be happy!

Meditation is one of the way that they recommend. Self convincing that you're happy, is just like self hypothesize yourself of being happy then subsequently you'll be happy.

5th Card: Sticks
You've to master each single steps, then you can proceed on to the next. You just can not jump to another step. The sticks in the book actually mentioned that all I need to do is to get rid of the 8 Lies of Iktumi and then fill my life with 10 Absolute truths. These ten truths that will strongly hold on to the belief and slowly, start to appreciate all life, love all things and have an unseen strengths that will help through any problems.

If there is something in your life that makes you unhappy, you may have to change it. Change can sometimes be difficult, but do not be afraid. IF you follow your heart and think of others, the change will improve your life. Take the time to think of what makes you unhappy why not find what would make you happy instead. And make the change. It will make you happier in the end. Well, at the end of the day, is up to you whether you want to make yourself happy or unhappy.

Well, I know what have been bothering me, and I feel that I have to let go. Let go means changes too. I just feel that as long as I am doing something that make me happy and change my perspective and life to be in healthier and happies state why not. I should not be hindering myself with unhappy things/people that make me unhappy about life and everything.♥

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joyful dragon year!

- Tuesday, January 24, 2012 -

happy Cny! :)♥

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Bruno Mars - It Will Rain

- Saturday, December 10, 2011 -

his Elvis Presley hairstyle.♥

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i am not

- Saturday, November 19, 2011 -

frankly speaking, i am not as happy now. yes, i am NOT HAPPY!

i just wish that i have a place that i need not entertain anyone else or even listen to anyone else! i just want to do my own things which i think it makes me happy.

for what i know, i'm not happy and i'm suppressing inside. Additional to that, i felt trapped and controlled with things that i dislike doing or feeling.. like as if going against myself to do it.. me no longer me. who am i?

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suddenly

- Sunday, November 13, 2011 -

haven't been that good recently i guess. all i want now is for people to leave me alone.

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memories

- Wednesday, November 09, 2011 -

i was browsing through some old photos from my workplace... i saw how the kids under my care have grown. from a height that doesn't reach my waist toddler to a preschooler that speaks so well and even make fun of you. time really flies! isn't it scary?

i learnt from them about unconditional love; they forgive and forget so quickly that i doubt adults can do so; when they sensed that you're feeling rather tired or unhappy, they ask you "Are you alright?" Simple words like that really melts your heart.

Aww... Kids! as innocent as they can be.♥

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what about

- Monday, November 07, 2011 -

tomorrow, it's my LAST PAPER! Goody! Somehow i felt kind of lost. One of my top priority is going to end.

Many years back, I wished that I can have a memory that I can only remember necessary things. Unnecessary stuff won't be there so not to waste my memory space. Well, you've to be careful of what you wish for. It came through. My memory is really bad especially on things that I don't think it's important. Weird huh... Sometimes, remember too many unnecessary things that only made you more irritated as days goes by. I'm still glad what memory I have now. :)

So, my dearest friends, don't blame me for not remembering things.♥

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you know what

- Thursday, November 03, 2011 -

you know what, i had this weirdest feeling ever. it feelings like i have all the time in the world. i have no sense of urgency right now. weird huh. my second last paper will commence in like 12 hours time. i feel neither nervous nor panicky. WEIRD!

it seems like everything kind of calm and laid back today. it's not an excuse of being lazy. i guess i'm just far too tired from work last night.

i received an sms from my partner this morning. saying thank you. as i stay up late to paint the huge tiger face for her activity next week. i guess it's just the tiniest thing i could help her. since she's taking care of the children so well while i can concentrate with my studies during this exam period.

HA P P Y♥

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so much so

- Monday, October 31, 2011 -

have been talking to different friends about stuff. i just felt that everyone has different point of views about life and perspective on certain situations. Ultimately, what really matters will be about you having the free will of choice. And you're truly happy about the decisions you made.

Anyway, I've completed 4 papers already. 2 more to go!

Had a long chat with mum just now. Sometimes, it really feels great talking to an elderly who knows more. Oh gosh! I realised that i've so much to learn. Well then, I shall be patient and learn things on my own pace.♥

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my New Zealand jade

- Monday, October 24, 2011 -

I found there's a long and deep crack on my New Zealand jade. I was really puzzled with that crack as I 'm very sure that I did not knock onto anything hard.

Jade is a very hard stone. And it act as an amulet and protection to me. I Thank it whole-heartedly for saving me or soften the dangerous situations for me. And I'm grateful for it's protection for me. Wearing it made me feel so calm and not as nervous like I made myself to be. I'm a person that get overwhelmed and get nervous extremely easily. Then, I will screw up everything.

Thank you for all this while!

Here's my beloved New Zealand Jade bangle.

♥

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